It' ok that you are finding this tough.
It's ok that this is harder than you thought it would be
It's ok to wish you could feel different
It's ok to wish your body could look or feel different
It's ok that some days feel so heavy
It's ok to wish you had known more, prepared more
It's ok to wish someone had told you this part
It's ok to wish you weren't so in the dark about these parts of your body
It's ok to have days and seasons where you feel like you are going backwards
It's ok to feel defeated sometimes
It's ok to feel broken, confused or overwhelmed
It's ok because it is HUMAN.
It's ok that you no longer feel like yourself...perhaps because you are no longer who you were.
Perhaps through all of this, a new version of you is gestating in the tender seed of your transition and struggle.
Waiting.
Waiting to be witnessed.
And midwifed.
Perhaps all we can offer in these moments, and on these tougher days, is the soil of safety and grounding..
The nourishment of water.
And the kindness and compassion of sunlight.
Sometimes that's all we can do..
and in time
With the added needle and thread of tending to our needs.
this phase will all of a sudden make more sense.
You will sense a new tapestry was being weaved..
It wasn't just a baby you birthed and brought into the world
It was yourself.
Midwifing the self is the most under acknowledged and unsupported process of pregnancy and birth.
It is not just a baby who is born, it is a mother.
It is the next version of you.
And just like a physical birth
the turning and birthing of the next version of us is hard. Very hard.
And it's a very difficult time of our lives to navigate with the added pressures on modern parenthood.
It takes time.
It requires love, attention and care.
It requires soooo much compassion and holding.
It requires a village.
And to have hard days
Like really hard days
Is not a sign you are failing...
It is a sign you are paying attention.
It is a sign you are being tossed by the powers of making.
It is a sign of the aches and pains of becoming a mother.
Every form of birth needs a midwife, a community and a holding space.
Every birth requires everyone.
Holding space for you always,
Katy x
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